Rusty. Me. Sorry.
This is probably the most idiotic thing I've done in quite some time. Attempting to write this piece. I'm out of practice.
Crusty and rusty.
In the very least, I shall try...
The hard fact is that I may very well be responsible for a number of people not having a faith or a belief in God. This is nothing short of devatstating and tearfully unacceptable!
This is my humble attempt at remedying this catastrophe.
If you know me, you know that I say what I'm thinking. (Often to my own detriment)I rarely mince words and if I do, its only momentarily. I will get it out sooner or later (much to the dismay of my many unsuspecting casualties).
Articulate, yes. But not always accurate - yup, that's me.
I've been complimented by some very scholarly folks on my diction and writing style, which is great. But bring up the topic of God, Theology, The Bible and I'm a babbling idiot.
I've been cursed with the gift of my
'delivery' being like that of a clown. (At least that's how it seems - not meaning to sound so self-depracating, but truthfully , I do a lot of head slapping at my own acknowledgment of my bad '
delivery' style). I am a passionate person. Overly obsessive on topics of great interest to me.
Call it a personality trate (or fault) either way, we are all uniquely designed. Couple this with life events and a strong desire to not be misunderstood, my vernacular & compulsivity in overexplaining, typically seems to result in my audiance falling over, eyes glazed in a dizzying frenzy.
I've vocally questioned things (of God/the Bible). A lot. I've made off-color claims, I've been confused and have taken others along for the ride - leaving more than my share of dismayed victims scratching their heads. (God forgive me - plenty have been left hurting).
All this to say; I'm sorry. So, so very sorry. Please, oh please, do not let my humaness derail you or keep you from searching for (God) if you should choose to. Do not let my ignorance and arrogance and especially my plain old hypocrisy sway you in any way.
Again we are acknowledging that my '
delivery' is atrocious and it would be such a shame if that is the thing to keep one from knowing God.
What a shameful and sad revelation this is. It should not be so. Yet, you are reading this.
If I ever committed a crime - this is it. The grandest offense. Leading those I cherish astray. Not by
intentionally turning anyone away from God, (no-never) but inadvertantly so - because my declarations are so harsh and bruising.
Interestingly enough, how can one be so in love with God and just be so bismal at sharing
His love? Honestly!
In closing - I'd go so far as to state that if I were to dedicate my life to anything, it should be this; To learn to tame my tongue. And to have answers for those who have questions. To love and never condemn. To be oh so slow to speak and quick to listen.
It can be so difficult to undo the damage we cause - but more damaging to not try.
Numbers 6:24-26
The Lord Bless Thee And Keep Thee: The Lord Make His Face Shine Upon Thee, And Be Gracious Unto Thee: The Lord Lift Up His Countenance Upon Thee, And Give Thee Peace.
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